So I just finished the in-class essay for my german class (it went okay). I think I am supposed to feel relieved, but really I just feel more stressed that my year-to-decide-what-to-do-next is over and I still don't know what I want to do next.

And kudos to you, Tay, for making it this long. Good luck!

Joey Moss fighting in Iraq

How can we win when the heart and soul of the team is in Iraq?

Tay when you say with child, does that mean Grant is pregnant? or does he have some love child?

I shouldn't be allowed on the internet drunk. It's kind of embarassing.

Keep on going man, you're almost there! Solidarity brother!

Got to go I think my cubicle neighbours are peeking in.

Shit, I forgot say: the first day of fasting was the hardest because I ate a shit-load the day before. So much for easing my way in. When your stomach is expecting a shit-load of food and it doesn't come, it hurts like a bitch. Plus watching people eat your favourite foods in front of you is tough like you wouldn't believe. Today was a lot easier in resisting the temptation to eat. However, I DID feel shittier today, especially around supper-time. I felt really weak and tired. But like I said: the guinness helped like you wouldn't believe. I think I'm ready for day 3.

I hope.

Here's what I've put in my mouth since Sunday night:

1. about 4 cups of chocolate milk
2. 3 cups of orange juice
3. a caraffe of iced-tea (but I couldn't finish it)
4. 4 pints of guinness plus a shot of jaggermeister mixed with goldschlagger

That's fucked up. I can't even believe that I'm doing this. I was almost 100% sure I would've quit by now, but somehow I'm doing it. This is hands down the most fucked up insane thing I've ever done. Possibly also one of the hardest things I've ever done.

I am currently at like 50 hours of not eating anything solid. I damn near died today skateboarding from my house down to whyte ave. Not to mention I ate shit when I hit a curb I didn't notice. That sucked. But after skateboarding all that way I felt hella weak. I met up with some people at Block 1912 and I though I was gonna die. But I went back to Wunderbar for twister and I got 4 pints of Guinness and now I feel much better albeit drunk like a motherfucker. I can hardly even see the screen. But man, I would've quit my fast tonight if it wasn't for that guinness. That shit was seriously a life-saver. When I ordered my first Guinness I was so weak that I was scared I was gonna drop the glass... but as I kept drinking more I felt better and better. Maybe I don't feel better at all, but I just THINK I'm better kuz I'm drunk. I guess tomorrow I'll find out for sure. Gawdamm, this typing shit is HARD. My goal is to make it until noon on Friday. We should plan a sweet outting to Khazana's for a lunch buffet that day. I think that would be the sweetest thing to do after not eating for a week! Who's down for that shit? I know tony is, since he suggested it even before I told him I was thinking about doing it. We should get a sweet crew for old time's sake. I'm almost tempted to invite grant just so I can see him with child again. Hahahaha, fucking dude. Is Ali back in town by Friday? That would be hella wicked. Anyway, I better get some sleep. Talk to you fucks later.

Okay, I deleted the extras, and I'll try to fix it when I get the chance. I'll need to know exactly what you did, though. (Step by step.)

what the fuck is going on??? I edited, and then I sent a new message... a new post!!!

bug! bug! Paras, something to fix!!!

sorry for the over abundance of flowers....